He shot His arrows deep into my heart. The thought of my suffering and hopelessness is bitter beyond words. I will never forget this awful time, as I grieve over my loss. YET I DARE to Hope when I remember this: The UNFAILING Love of the Lord NEVER ENDS! By His mercies we have been kept from complete destruction.
Lamentations 3:13,19-22

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Update on Tates Place

I pray this is the final update I have to give on Tates Place. Its been a roller coaster ride the past few months. To even imagine its possible to bury someone, much less a baby in the wrong place is beyond me, but the Lord carried us through. It is by His grace we will NOT have to move  our precious son.
 Praise Him! He is worthy of all our praise!
When we first found out this news, it was like a shock to the heart but over time it has once again been something the Lord used to draw us closer to the Him. While I would prefer a much easier nudge, the outcome worked out for His Glory!  
We went to Tates last weekend, like we do every Saturday and met with Mr. M. We did paper work and I am happy to report ( I guess as happy as anyone can be in this situation) that Tate will have the same resting place forever, with us right next to him one day. Thank you for continued prayers.
Im reminded of a verse that Kevin is learning at church,
5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
6 In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths.



Friday, February 10, 2012

I had to share this

A fellow grieving, mommy blogger posted this. I couldn't believe how perfect it was. I always wonder am I crazy? Could there possible be other moms that feel this way? You try keeping alot of it to yourself, sort of hide, because to any normal person, they sound unrealistic and....well...crazy. I know to someone who has never lost a CHILD/BABY may not understand this odd middle ground that will forever be there...The middle ground of thinking you feel terrible/fine, devastated/happy, or even disappointed yet hopeful.
 To the grieving mommies out there....This just helped me realize Im NOT ALONE!

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Tates Place: Update

I thought I would give you an update on Tates Place.
We went for a meeting Saturday to discuss what the next steps are.
 I stayed in the car with the kids. I came to the conclussion that, its just best if David handles this. I cant. My emotions take over. So David and these men walked over to Tates place. All I saw was pointing of others places and David shaking hes head no.
There are 3 options.
1. Tates stays where he is and we be buried next to him BUT we would have to do something called "Double depth". Its where David and I would be on top of one another, in one plot. There is only one plot next to Tate. Its weird but still and option.
2. Tate be moved.....Even writing this, I have to take a deep breath. I dont like it , I dont like it.
3. They FIND the owner of the vacant plots next to Tate and we would all be side by side.
This is the best option to us.
We dont understand why it is taking so long to find this person. We are not in a hurry to be buried, its just I want this to be OVER with! It is very unsettling to us.
We have a lot of people, asking...How do we pray.
I say, pray that this issue is resolved quickly
That these people become more helpful. That they understand this is a baby, our baby, that we want to rest peacfully and not moved just so it would be more convenient for them!
That Tate will not have to be moved!

Thank you for your love and prayers.

Friday, February 3, 2012

Appointment at the Cemetery

We have an appointment tomorrow morning at the cemetery. We dont know what their going to say. David received a phone call today from the guy in charge of all the cemeteries under Forest Crest. Hes coming from Florida to meet with us. While I fear their going to give us bad news, I know the Lord has a plan. He already knows the outcome and I just want to handle this the best I can.
To back up a little, David called this man on Monday, just to discuss was our concerns. We feel this situation isn't priory for them. Its been over a month since we've even heard from them.
Please pray for us and this situation.
Pray for wisdom, to know what to say. We want to be Christ-like in all that we say and do. Even though this is a hard, hard place to be and my emotions get the best of me, we want to do this the best way we know how.
Praying for strength to do the Lords will. If its the Lords will for Tate to be move, I am going to need His strength to do it.
Praying for peace about what could be laid before us.
Praying that we DONT have to move our precious Tate.

Psalm 50:16-17
 But as for me, I will sing about your power.
Each morning I will sing with joy about your unfailing love.
For you have been my refuge,
a place of safety when I am in distress.
O my Strength, to you I sing praises,
for you, O God, are my refuge,
the God who shows me unfailing love.