He shot His arrows deep into my heart. The thought of my suffering and hopelessness is bitter beyond words. I will never forget this awful time, as I grieve over my loss. YET I DARE to Hope when I remember this: The UNFAILING Love of the Lord NEVER ENDS! By His mercies we have been kept from complete destruction.
Lamentations 3:13,19-22

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Candle Light

Candle Light for all the sweet, sweet babies that we miss!
~Haley Joe~

See you soon!

Sweet, little Levi went to be with Jesus last night. I cant tell you how my heart breaks for this precious family! There is no greater pain! I pray that the Lord would give them peace and comfort that only He can give.

Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. Through my tears and broken heart I will always cherish Tates 53 days. My heart breaks for my friend Becca. Please continue to pray for Becca and Micheal as they start this new journey.
Levi and Tate, thank you for changing our lives and so many, many others. Even when we dont understand and we ache at the though of you not being here, we know that you both were chosen to serve a mighty purpose for our Mighty God.
What perfect and brave vessels you were. 
Levi and Tate are running on Golden street, splashing in the crystal sea, and being held by His nail scared hands.
We love you and we'll see you soon!

There are so many families that are facing the difficult task of living without their precious little one!

Liam, we miss you so much! I hope you and Tate are having the best time together. We will hold you in our hearts for the rest of our lives. It seems time goes by so slow when we think of how much we miss you and want to hold you again, but until we are together for all eternity, we will try and walk this hard road without you. Thank you for the amazing but far too short lives you lived. I would not be the person I am today without you sweet little boys!


Thursday, October 13, 2011

what gets me through a day

What gets me through a day! The sweetest nurse that was in the room the day Tate was born. She saw first hand, the miracle Tate was. She is furthering her education and thinks of Tate as she pushes through the difficult task of test after test! Thank you Meredith for remembering Tate the way I feel he should be remembered. Seeing in a medical perspective that he was a miracle. That he did conquer those obstacles. Obstacles that were never supposed to happen, but by the Grace of God he did. You will be AMAZING!
Thank you from the bottom of my heart!

"Just a little reminder that miracles happen everyday. Baby Tate's story gives me inspiration to keep my chin up, because the obstacles I am facing are small compared to the one's he conquered. RN here I come!"

The doctors and nurses that helped us on the Tate was born will forever be apart of the wonderful memories I have of my son!
Thank you!

Little Levi

I am asking you, more like begging you for your prayers. This Sweet Family is facing so much right now. The odds are against them but the Lord is on their side. Please pray that the Lord would work in a Mighty way for Little Levi. He has come such a long way. Pray for his mommy and daddy also. They have been so strong and faithful. Praying without ceasing!  

This is precious, sweet Levi and his family! He is a little missionary. He is truly proving the Lord is in control!
Pray for this family! You can see his proud, big brother!


Wednesday, October 12, 2011


Hey everyone! Just a quick update. I no longer will have "The Southern Cricket" name. My blog will be "Granted 53".
So if you type in thesoutherncricket my blog will not come up. You have to type in  http://www.babytategranted53.blogspot.com/

I just want my blog to be about this new life that Im trying to walk without Tate. This new life that the Lord is leading, its hard but with His help I will survive it. Join me as I search for "the joy that comes in the morning." Im going to be honest and tell you there are days (lots of days) that its hard to find any joy in it but with the Lords guidance and direction He will restore me. Im reading a book called HOPE. Written by Nancy Guthrie, a mother that has gone through the same things that David and I have but she faced it twice. I know God put this book in my hand! 
Thank you for wanting to share in the journey.

OH, Give me back my joy again; you have broken me-Now let me rejoice. Restore to me again the joy of your salvation, and make me willing to obey you.
Psalm 51:8,12

Our hearts ache, but we always have joy. We are poor, but we give spiritual riches to others. We own nothing, and yet we have everything.
2 Corinthians 6:10

The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; He rescues those who are crushed in spirit.

The pain turned you to God
2 Corinthians 7:9

Monday, October 10, 2011

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awarness Day

Alot of people do not realize that October 15th is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. There are parents all over the world that come together on October 15 to show that even though our babies were here a short time, they mattered. David and I will be going to the Birmingham Botanical Gardens to walk in memory of Tate. We hope to meet other families that face daily struggles just like ours. Some days its very hard to put one foot in front of the other but on October 16th I will walk for my son, Tate.
Who will you walk for?

 13 For you created my inmost being;
   you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
   your works are wonderful,
   I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
   when I was made in the secret place,
   when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
   all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
Proverbs 139:13-16

Im so tired of trying to make it day to day without Tate. Im so tired of looking in his bed and him not there, Im tired of not sleeping at night because I have empty arms. When Tate was diagnosed with Trisomy 18, I thought, God why? Why us? Why my son? But over time I felt God had given us a peace.  We felt such a peace over everything that happened with my pregnancy, his birth and his 53 days of life, but today as I layed in bed while David took the kids to church, I just thought I HATE THIS! I WANT MY SON BACK! I know he served a great purpose but I WANT HIM!! I lay awake every night thinking of how much I miss Tate. Its an every day struggle to breathe without him. But as I type this out I am BROKEN. This gets harder and harder everyday! I feel we are still walking that valley. I dont know if I coming out of the storm or if still walking through it.
 I am thankful for my wonderful husband. He holds me together when I fall apart. He helps with the kids when I just need to go and cry it out to God. I dont want to think about where I would be without him.
I am a completely different person than who I was before we started this journey.

 There is a time for everything:

1 There is a time for everything,
   and a season for every activity under the heavens:
 2 a time to be born and a time to die,
   a time to plant and a time to uproot,
 3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
   a time to tear down and a time to build,
 4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
   a time to mourn and a time to dance,
 5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
   a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
 6 a time to search and a time to give up,
   a time to keep and a time to throw away,
 7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
   a time to be silent and a time to speak,  
 8 a time to love and a time to hate,
   a time for war and a time for peace. 
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

 Its my time mourn for my son but its Tates time to DANCE with the angels!